Mission: Get Happy

This is a very personal blog today. In fact, I feel the duty to forewarn you if you are sensitive to bodily issues. This somewhat relates to my blog a few weeks ago about my breakdown, but now i have determined a possible cause other than insanity. I've been on Alesse (ahaha, boys you don't know what im talking about!!) for about the past two months, and was on Yasmin prior to that. Before my introduction to the world of contraception I would have described myself as cool, calm, and collected (majority of the time). I was a very happy individual and bad days were easily warded off with a good CD, some hot chocolate, or a funny movie. Now I struggle to maintain my once natural identity. Upon noticing this difference (recently it's been absolutely terrible!!) I decided to research the effect of birth control on moods. I was completely relieved to find an entire forum where women posted comments about their similar experiences being on the pill. Luckily I have a doctors appointment scheduled for this week!! It turns out that depression is a side effect of birth control in many women. In fact, the experiences these women described were almost identical to my own. Anxiety - feelings of mistrust. Many women were appalled at themselves and had turbulent relationships because of an increased insecurity and feelings of jealousy. Depression - Majority described themselves as being an emotional wreck, feeling like crying everyday (or actual doing it), having little energy or motivation to do anything, and in general, feeling like there was a rain cloud overhead constantly. Irritability - feeling annoyed and negative towards most people encountered and being angered at the smallest infraction, many mood swings. This pretty much sums up what my last few months has been like. I'm hoping that by consulting my doctor things will change. I could try a new brand, or just quit them (but of course there are other issues that come into play for this choice). Anwyays, I'm just glad to have found some possible explanation for my abundance of abnormal feelings lately. Many of the girls in the forum said that by changing or going off the pill they regained their old selves and felt alot better. Also, I think these pills are giving me acne and an ugly face doesnt help when you're feeling down, haha!