Pottery

Last night I could have smoked weed but i chose not to. I have never done that in my whole life. I'm not sure why. My conscience won't let me, but why? Technically it's not wrong. Another part of my my mind reasons this and wonders what would happen.. why not? What if I'm a number one hit single song writer confined by sobriety? What if I'm a great artist waiting to be liberated into dimensions of the mind only available with the help of drugs? After knowing virtually no one who hasn't tried it, it seems like i'm missing out on "something". Yet every time the opportunity arrises my conscience usually wins. "no thanks, no I don't do that stuff". In the end I'm sitting at even. I'm somewhat proud to have stood by beliefs for so long and call myself 100% drug free (not including tylenol and the like) but I'm also weighted by the knowledge that technically, I'm just rebelling against something that doesn't really matter anyways "in the big picture" and missing some kind of experience. It's not like one time will turn me into a pothead, make me a bad person, or drop my IQ by 100 points. I've been called "straight edge" and goody two shoes since grade 6. The problem with it is that those labels assume that the person is controlled by authority, narrowminded, and boring. I wouldn't consider myself any of those things - i'm not particularily against any certain behaviors or people who do them (except maybe those that have the potential to ruin your future, ie. cocaine, thieving, laziness, etc.). It's just that I personally can't bring myself to do certain things for whatever reason I don't know.