CONFUSION

Tannis is confused. So today was a weird day. Here's the background story: My ex-boyfriend and I share the same birthday (not really, his is the day before...) so since we are still friends we decided to go out an celebrate today. The original plan was to go to the science center, but I get off at school at 3 and it closes at 4 so those plans fell through. Instead we went bowling, then to the Taj Mahal restaraunt, and then watched a movie called "Miracle at St. Anne's"(or something along those lines). First confusion moment happened as soon as I got in the car (he picked me up at school). He gave me a box of chocolates and a nice card with kittens on it that had a poem he wrote on the inside (more background: he's not the type to write a poem or even seem to have romantic thoughts at all... pretty much a man's man to the max). Then at the end of the night as he was driving me home, he told me he had a letter for me and pulled out a piece of paper from his pocket. I read it and it was pretty good actually - I was impressed - it was basically an apology/love letter.... another out of character thing for him to do. I realize he's been pretty heart broken - but's it's been almost four months now... another weird thing is that all of a sudden he starts playing soccer (he joined a team, I had suggested it for so long), then he goes to the mosque (a long time ago, I also suggested he do that to have some reflection/spiritual time). I feel like he's actually trying to change... something I didn't think was fair to request, however he told me himself on one occassion, "you told me it was unfair of you to ask me to change, but you weren't asking me to change my personality, you were asking me to change for the better." Anyways, if you've read my previous entries you'd knwo why I am now in a state of confusion... on one hand I have a hard time believing this is true... what if things go back the way they were before?? On the other... it seems like he's doing "that thing", that unrealistic, that could never happen thing, the only thing that would make me go back. what if?? Everynow and then I catch my mind referring to him as my baby... but I always thought that these type of feelings were natural... that everyone goes through a period of missing at some point... on the other hand I never felt that way in any other relationship. I just don't know what to do. Thoughts?